of meeting new friends

so last night, after going off for work, we, together with the ojt's headed to sm southmall para gumala.

so there we go... me and my "anaks".

actually, the first weeks and months here were not so fun with them. medyo hiwalay kasi sila sa amin. it was when they were asked to help the web development team that we became close to them.

here are some photos:


si dolpo - ang panganay na anak... palaging tahimik at minsan parang out of this world. may pagka warfreak at pagka hysterical (daw!) hehehe

si abet (wearing black) - ang pangalawang anak... may pagkakulit at maingay. siya ang tinaguriang michael jackson dahilsa kanyang pambihirang mga pantalon. siya din ang black ship of the family.

(dont mind about the boy drinking water, he's nothing)

si jr (omg! anak ko pala ung umiinom ng tubig) - ang pangatlong anak. medyo may kaliitan pero mabait naman. siya ang pinaka cool sa lahat ng mga magkakapatid dahil parang hindi yata marunong magalit. mahilig ibuka ang kanyang mga palad sa hindi ko malamang kadahilanan.


si ely - ang pang apat na anak. siya ay mabait at masunurin. kaya naman siya ang laging naghuhugas ng pinggan at nagluluto ng pagkain. minsan iniisip ko na ampon lang siya. kasi medyo hindi namin siya kawangis. hehe

si ely pa din... gusto maging model ng mineral water.

si rashes - ang bunso... malakas uminom ng alak at sa ngayon ay naiipit sa dalawang nag uumpugang bato (o tatlo yata) dahil sa kanyang buhay pag ibig. ^_^

ang anak ko kumakain ng paotsin.

kaya minsan iniisip ko na hindi ko anak si jr dahil magiging son-in-law pala siya...

well, its kinda fulfilling kung napapalapit sa iyo ang mga nagiging ojt. kasi you know na its more than the professional relationship you have with them. you develop friendship sa kanila na you will treasure forever.

aside from the work that you shared at the corporate section of your life, you share with them a part of yourself, your personal part where they know you a little bit more of what you can show them at work.

so last night, we did some groceries (they are preparing for my visit at their place... hopefully pakainin nila ako ng masarap. im just kidding nung sinabi kong pancit canton lang okey na sa akin. i know they are reading this entry kaya i will tell na din na i like sinigang, nilaga, adobo, paksiw.... hahaha! or spaghetti. but carbonara is better).

and eto pa, before we went to the grocery, abet led us to toy kingdom as he was looking for puzzles. so off we go to toy kingdom. after quite some time, nawawala si abet! omg! si abet nawawala! cool! he went out of tk at dumerecho na sa grocery while we searched and walked around tk. nakabili ako ng stuffed toy. wala pa ngang pangalan. mga anak, help me name my new stuffedtoy...

every wed nga pala sa tk, once you purchase items and pay using your bdo atm card, you get 5% discount. nag-plug pa. ^_^

anyways, i also bought this 750-pcs puzzle of mount rushmore. (will be posted later about it).

after tk, off we go to the grocery. hmm... ano nga ba mga binili ko. i just bought:

3 ivory soaps
1kg surf powder green
6pcs downy isang banlaw
12pcs clear shampoo
1liter choco milk
10 pcs chicken katsudon (for breakfast)
1.5kl of pork pata (for sunday)
1 gatsby wax

ayun lang, 600 pesosesoses na yun!

well, that's life. anyway, those are the basic things that i need naman. and i will use it for the next 30-50 days.

after grocery, kumain sila sa paotsin (hindi ako inorder ng sharksfin) so i ended up eating rice in a box.

kulitan pa konti at kwentuhan with them and a little picture taking and we planned that we will go out again.

the only sad part, kung kelan aalis na sila tsaka lang kami nakalabas ng ganun like last night. late na yung bonding moments namin. anyways, meron pa namang more than a week na magstay sila dito sa company so makakabonding pa kami kasama si tatay james. hehe.

but anyways, im happy for having new friends here from enverga university na bata pa lang ako kilala na sa galing dahil sa kanilang pagsali sa battle of the brains.

for meeting new people i got to learn new lessons, of this really cool game called life...

...friends are blessing...

of mother and son

i grew up with the custom of waking up 12 midnight and will post a "kartolina" on the wall with the greeting "Happy Birthday, (name of the celebrant)" whenever a member of our family celebrated birthday.

yesterday, october 15, my mum's bday. it was her first birthday that we were not together. i really want to go to subic to celebrate with them (my girls, my mum and sis) and enjoy my mum's most special day of the year. but i can't since i have work and i actually had a lot of absences in the past due to my sickness.

i spent the whole day like a normal day frequently sending message to my mum about what's happening at her place.

well, i must say, yesterday was a not so good day for me since im really not fond of spending special days like yesterday alone.

its been quite some time since i started living alone. 4 months or so of being single, as in literally single is like uhmm... how can i describe it... it's great since i am managing my house alone. but on the tradition of pinoys of living together with the family is what i really missed.

my mom's home cooked meals... the morning dew scent of my clothes. my well ironed pants. my clean bedsheets changed weekly. my organized room (duh, i hate it when she messes up with my things though. hahaha!), my empty trashcan.

so much to say, i really just miss my mum a lot...

i miss sunday afternoon lying on her lap while we share stories of the previous week's happening with me.

my mum's endless "chikas" about achuchuchu and everything.

so the day passed and works off. me and the ojt's planned to go out (will be posted on another blog) and do some gala moments since they will be leaving the company soon.

i got home around 10PM. my neighbor, my dear brother, is waiting for me. so we chatted for a couple of minutes and went to his house.

i called mum for like 80 minutes and that was the longest 80 minutes i guess (hey, i aint using sun cellular's unli call hahahah). i was happy last night that after a long time, we were able to talk again just like before.

mum, i miss you. wait for me there. ill be coming home by the end of the month. punta tayo sa times square and go around the metro.

yes, my treat! ^_^


...being a family oriented person...

of holding on to promises

"I take thee,
to have and to hold
from this day forward;
for better, for worse,
for richer, for poorer,
in sickness and in health,
to love and to cherish,
till death us do part,
according to God's holy law.
In the presence of God I make this vow."

familiar eh?

till death do us part...

but will death really take people part? for many, yes.

pero for my friend, roy, death was not able to cut the love he have for his wife. kahit nasa kabilang buhay na ito, patuloy nya pa din itong sinusulatan.

almost every day and night, he wrotes his letters to his wife through his blog Letters to Mama.

the first time i read his blog, i was so touched on how he came up with such idea of sending letters to his beloved wife that came along with a tag line "Maybe there's an internet in heaven".

well, so much for now. last sunday, his blog was featured sa Rated K of Korina Sanchez.

i adore his love for his wife so much i even recorded the episode of rated k.

so guys, here's the first part of the show.

kainis no? ibinitin pa ni korina. hehe... kahit ako last sunday. i was like "tsk tsk, ano ba yan, putol pa"

sige, ibibitin ko din muna kayo.

well, as what i've read sa blog ni kuya roy, he was at first hesitant and was not sure about the decision of having that interview with RK. and i do believe he made the right decision of showing the world his love for his wife. of showing his own way of how to reach out for his beloved wife. of showing the world that death is not an end to a love story but merely a beginning of a new love story of two people in love.

kuya roy, i admire you for what you've done and for what you are doing. saludo ako sa iyo pare ko!

so much for that, here's the second part of the show:

whew! kahit alam ko na ang story ng blog na letters to mama, my eyes were still wet after watching the show.

i was thinking about myself. na if ever i go and leave this world, meron kayang isang tao who will do the same? reaching out to me kahit na im not here in the world anymore. and wishing that there is an internet in heaven where i could browse and read along blogs of people who misses me.

kung nakikita ng wife ni kuya roy ngayon ang lahat, im pretty sure she is always smiling as she reads each entry in kuya roy's blog. kahit happy, sad, or even whining and crying and subject ng blog entry, the most important thing is, kuya roy never forgets to let his wife know what is happening with the family she left.

kuya roy, the first time you shared your story with us, your pva01 family, you have touched our lives. and now, i know you touched more lives by sharing your story with the world. and sana, with the help of this blog entry, i can spread your story so more and more people will be touched and will learn to value more love and relationships with their family and loved ones.

as ive said kuya roy, saludo ako sa iyo!

...getting inspiration from others...

of the one that almost got away

last friday, when im about to go home, ate jheng sent me an sms, asking me to go to her place so we could share a bottle or two together with ate jhoan. i immediately packed up and headed for the way home.

on my way home, a friend beeped me also, asking if i am free that night... syempre, pacute, oo naman ako agad kahit hindi. hahaha!

how i managed 2 dates at one time? simple lang...

binitbit ko yung friend ko sa house ni ate jheng. i introduced my friend to them. we had a couple of beers. getting to know each other ang mga cousins ko at ang friend ko.

im happy naman my friend got along well with my closest cousins. they were able to connect themselves to each other for such a short span of time.

and that's one of the reasons why i love my cousins so much! they love the things i love. and they welcome the people i welcome into my life...

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!

cousins, sorry ngayon nyo lang malalaman. akala nyo umuwi na kami no? hehehe! hindi pa po. nagpunta pa kami sa S&S bar sa las piñas, medyo bitin kasi yung andun sa house nyo. and besides, you're so drunk na ate... kahit na you were telling us tipsy ka pa lang. drunken mistress ka na! wahooo!!!!

randy, buti na lang wala ka dun sa bar at hindi tayo nagkita kung hindi nahuli mo pa ako! hahahaha!

well, to sum it all up, it was a great great night!

yun muna for now.

...you almost got away. but hey! i got yah!...

of superfrends, laughters and leaving

first of all, i would like to greet Honey Faith a happy birthday!!! she turned 24 yesterday and i can see that she had fun and she was happy.

sino pala si honey? honey is one of my closest bud at work together with the superfrends randy, roxy and otep. pards nga pala ang tawagan namin.

superfrends? yeah, superfrends ang tawag namin sa aming lima. super bestfriends. kasama mo sa kulitan, sa saya, sa lungkot at sa kahit saan pa.

how did we got to know each other and how superfrends became superfrends? nagsimula yun nung bday ni randy last january. he invited the whole 17B chorale group pero kaming apat lang ang dumating. so kinain naming apat yung napakaraming food for 20 heads yata hahaha. so it all started there and the rest is history. eto kami ngayon, superfrends.

so yesterday, honey's birthday. had lunch with superfrends and the accounting peeps. ang sarap ng luto mo pards! the best! that was the best menudo i tasted in my life, ever! swear yan walang halong biro.

then come merienda time, poof! pancit naman with ham/cheese stick. sirang sira ang diet (hahaha! may diet nga ba?) sa sobrang sarap ng mga foods na dala ni pards.

well, last week pa namin usapan na we are going out to celebrate honey's bday and also to go around some bars para makakuha ng ideas ng designs and concepts ng mga bar.

7PM. off we go to aplaya. malayo kasi masyado ang smx plus may work pa the following day. sa menu kami nag stay. just had few bottles of beer and crispy sisig. hindi naman masarap hahaha! nakakainis i forgot to bring my digicam. wala tuloy pics. pero okies lang, madami pa namang time to be together.

well, sad to say, this will be honey's last bday in the company. she'll be leaving us this month to join a real estate company.

pards, as what we talked about last night, though magkakalayo layo tayo, the superfrends will always be the best of friends. walang iwanan. kahit hindi na tayo laging magkikita, we know in our hearts na tayo pa din.

we will miss you honey, and thank you for the time you shared with us, for all the laughters we've shared. promise mo lang na magpapakita ka sa mga date ng superfrends ha.

we wish you all the best blessings in your life and we know that as you enter this new career, new beginnings and new people will come your way. love you pards...

...goodbyes are not forever...

of being a friend

i was watching f.r.i.e.n.d.s. last night (yes, the series) when alex called me up.

hey, are you home?

yeah, bakit?

samahan mo naman ako. i just need someone to talk to.

where? kelan? now na?

yes now na. andito na ako sa kanto nyo. susunduin kita.

may magagawa pa ba ako? hahaha! do i have a choice? wala na syempre. but anyway, he's a very good friend of mine and medyo matagal tagal na din ang pinagsamahan namin.

so what happened? nagpunta kami sa parking area somewhere there in las piñas but before that, dumaan muna kami sa 7-11 to buy foods and drinks. nung nagsawa na, we went to alabang sa may aplaya, sandaling sandali lang naman kami doon.

im just wondering, he needs someone to talk to daw, hindi naman nagsalita ng problema nya, uminom lang at nilasing lang ako. hahaha! alex kahit kelan talaga ang gulo mo. ^_^

well, im just happy i was a friend last night na ready to be there in times needed be. kahit na wala naman akong naipayo at nakipag inuman lang. my presence i guess was the most important thing last night.

alex, whatever it may be, you know i'm always here for you. alam na alam mo yan. i know time will come all these things happening will be fine and okay for you. i hope that all the pain and hurt in your heart will be washed away and happiness will be there in your heart.

im just here my friend. for you, always...

...helping others move on...

of beginning beginnings

whew! that was hot! haha! ang alin? wala lang.

anyways, a couple of weeks ago, i was absent for two days, i was complaining about my fever, cough and colds... then im ok.

the following week, fever goes back. this time, its kinda more exhausting and kills my strength. i was absent from wednesday until monday of the following week. went to the doctor and told me i just need some rest. so come tuesday, i was able to get back my strength and ready for work.

i was reading along some emails saturday last week when i feel so cold (yeah, i know! data center has a lot of a/c units), a different kind of cold where you feel even your intestine chills. like that. went out to the cafeteria and had some hot soup to eat to ease the coldness i feel (hey, im telling you, that's the literal coldness, not the one in the heart. read my last entry loser! hahahah). so i went home exactly 5pm because i was feeling really bad that day. after i got home, i had medicine to lower the fever (its 40.02c). went down then after a couple of minutes goes back to 40.

my fever went on fluctuating until sunday night so i decided to go back to the doctor the following monday morning. i advised my boss that i wont be working for that day since i have to see my doctor.

and guess what, i have typhoid fever (ooopppss, where the hell i got this salmonella bacteria?) and she told me not to work for the whole week. what? for the whole week? another week at home. its really boring...

well, today friday, 5 days at home. not really boring. i had a couple of visitors. my titas, my grandma, my bestfriend cousins, a close friend (yeah, a very close one, hahah... oohhhh stop what you're thinking, im sick moron!) and some people i dont know the reason why they visited me hahah!

sa pinoy, its quite funny how we show our care to people we love. its funny how they wont even recognize you at times pero when it comes to the time na you are sick, naglalabasan pala ang mga kamag-anak mo. no no, dont get me wrong, im not looking at it in a bad way, nakakatuwa nga kasi they find time to drop by at my place.

and oh, my kuya, and my sis-in-law, superb. ako na ang nahihiya sa kanila. my sis in law even gave me a sponge bath. hahaha! yeah, she did. and im very thankful to them for taking care of me.

mom, i know you're worried. hahaha! but i aint dying noh! ano ka ba haha. im still alive and kicking. nagba-blog pa nga ako ngayon. you're bday is coming in, i miss you na. hope to see you and spend time with you on your birthday.

why the title?

i just feel my sickness is one of His many own ways of telling me, He's there for me and this is the time that we have to spend more time together. this is the beginning where i have to hold on to my faith. the time where i have to get back and pick up those shattered pieces of my life where once i left because of things i thought will be good for me. na hindi pala. but, i should be thankful also for those dark times of my life where i learned a lot from my experiences and to the people i met.

so this is it, my new beginnings.

...good life just got better...

of moving on and new beginnings

last night was such a great night i was able to release all that's been hidden here inside of me for quite some time. i was never given a chance to be like myself again until last night when a good friend of mine and i hanged out.

i was so drunk last night i really don't know what im doin. lol. i remember i was lying on the bathroom and wet with water because i puked several times. lol. stupid me talaga.

pero seriously, last night, was the night of victory. the night where everything were washed away. all the heartaches, pains, problems, loneliness... all thats here inside me i was keeping away from my friends for a long period of time.

before i closed my eyes this morning, i know that today will be a great day. a new day indeed. a new beginning...

thank God i found you... again...

...moved on...

...life goes back to the way it used to be...a little better...

be happy

reposting from ygroup


Always try to help a friend in need
Believe in yourself
Be brave...but it's ok to be afraid sometimes
Study hard
Give lots of kisses
Laugh often
Don't be overly concerned with your weight, it's just a number
Always try to see the glass half full
Meet new people, even if they look different to you
Remain calm, even when it seems hopeless
Take lots of naps..
Be weird whenever you have the chance
Love your friends, no matter who they are
Don't waste food
RELAX
Take an occasional risk
Try to have a little fun each day.
...it's important
Work together as a team
Share a joke with friends
Fall in love with someone..
...and say 'I love you' often
Express yourself creatively
Be conscious of your appearance
Always be up for surprises
Love someone with all of your heart
Share with friends
Watch your step
It will get better
There is always someone who loves you more than you know
Exercise to keep fit
Live up to your name
Seize the Moment
Hold on to good friends; they are few and far between
Indulge in the things you truly love
Cherish every Sunday
At the end of the day... PRAY
....... and close your eyes
And smile at least once a day!

of goodbyes and heartaches

"sorry, i give up..."

these words, these exact words came out from me... at last, im free.

and now, i can say that i'm still working my way to moving on... but a lot better compared to before...




mahirap




masakit




mixed emotions



but what happened taught me a lot of lessons and helped me become stronger


it is true, that love is somehow like math, because you should always look for the sign. and make sure you see it right.

im happy then, im happier now.






im wiser.







im better.







and i know, na wala akong inapakang tao...



wala akong niloko,



wala akong pinaasa,



wala akong sinaktan.






i just loved... and that love will always be a well learned lesson to me...



...still moving on...

Pain of Letting Go

Thanks to a good friend, Iris, for sharing me her blog article called "The Pain of Letting Go"

Click here to read

of pastas and heartaches

for the four lovely girls in my life: my mom, my sister and my two cousins ate jheng and ate jhoan

i was about to meet some of friends yesterday to sit down over a cup of coffee but was cancelled due to some errrie reasons. hmpft! makes me sick everytime i remember.

anyways, yesterday morning was not a good one but i still tried to manage and be happy. i washed my clothes and started cleaning some parts the house. watched dvd, played music, almost everything.

i thought ill be okay the whole day. i tried hard not to text that person knowing that i havent received any message kahit isa lang. and knowing kung nasaan siya everytime na hindi siya nagpaparamdam sa akin. it hurts a lot knowing that that very special person is not with you and with someone else's side.

after doing the laundry, i dropped by at my cousin's house. we (me, ate jheng, ate jhoan > my bestfriend cousins) cooked carbonara. hmmm! perfecto mio! made every neighbor and cousin taste my favorite food. haha! i can say i had a lot of fun and forgot temporarily all the burdens, heartaches and loneliness i am feeling. im greatful to them (my two very loving and understanding cousins) for being so kind, patient and understanding all my shortcomings and stupidity. my being so childish at times. for being there for me in times i need to talk to about everything. for pushing me lay down that bed and let that girl play around my face. hahaha! surely a lot of fun that time. for teaching me how to save money. for teaching me to be like them, kikays! hahaha... just a bit of course.

and the best of it all, for teaching me how to cook carbonara. ^_^

truly, blood is thicker than water... friends, partners and other people will leave you for nothing but your family will always be there for you no matter what happens. i learned a lot yesterday more than learning how to cook pasta. the time we shared last night cannot be compared to the time im with someone else begging for time and attention. the time when i was so stupid doing things ive never done before.

to the two of you, weeee! no words can explain what i feel. i know you both understand me and support me. thank you for that. next stop> baked mac!

to my mum and sister, go home. i miss you na.

and to you, yes you, you know who you are, love is not enough to make people happy. as what sir mark macapagal said, let me quote this:

"I believe in the fact that ending up with someone, finding a longtime partner that is, does not lie merely in the other person. I can actually argue that an equal part, or maybe even the greater part, has to do with the matter of timing. It has to do with you being ready to settle down and commit to someone in a way that goes beyond the little niceties of giddy romance."

so that's all for now. before i end this write up, let me share with you a very beautiful article written by Mark Macapagal titled "The One That Got Away"

The Manila Times
By: Mark J. Macapagal

THE ONE THAT GOT AWAY

In your life, you'll make note of a lot of people. Ones with whom you shared something special, ones who will always mean something. There's the one you first kissed, the one you first loved, the one you lost your virginity to, the one you put on a pedestal, the one you're with...and the one that got away.

Who is the one that got away? I guess it's that person with who everything was great, everything was perfect, but the timing was just wrong. There was no fault in the person, there was no flaw in the chemistry, but the cards just didn't fall the right way, I suppose.

I believe in the fact that ending up with someone, finding a longtime partner that is, does not lie merely in the other person. I can actually argue that an equal part, or maybe even the greater part, has to do with the matter of timing. It has to do with you being ready to settle down and commit to someone in a way that goes beyond the little niceties of giddy romance.

How often have you gone through it without even realizing it? When you're not ready to commit in that mature manner, it doesn't matter who you're with, it just doesn't work. Small problems become big; inconsequentials become dealbreakers simply because you're not ready and it shows. It's not that you and the person you're with are no good; it's just that it's not yet right, and little things become the flashpoint of that fact.

Then one day you're ready. You really are. And when this happens you'll be ready to settle down with someone. He or she may not be the most perfect, they might not be the brightest star of romance to ever have burned in your life, but it'll work because you're ready. It'll work because it's the right time and you'll make it work. And it'll make sense, it really will.

So that day comes when you're finally making sense of things, and you find yourself to be a different person. Things are different, your approach is different, you finally understand who you are and what you want, and you've become ready because the time has truly arrived. And mind you, there's no telling when this day will come. Hopefully you're single but you could be in a long-term relationship, you could be married with three kids, it doesn't matter.

All you know is that you've changed, and for some reason, the one that got away, is the first person you think about.

You'll think about them because you'll wonder, "What if they were here today?" You'll wonder, "What if we were together now, with me as I am and not as I was?". That's what the one that got away is. The biggest "What if?" you'll have in your life.

If you're married, you'll just have to accept the fact that the one that got away, got away. Believe me, nomatter how fairy tale you think your marriage is, this can happen to the best of us. But hopefully you're mature enough to realize that you're already with the one you're with and this is just another test of your commitment, one which will just strengthen your marriage when you get past it. Sure, you'll think about him/her every so often, but it's alright. It's never nice to live with a "might have been," but it happens.

Maybe the one that got away is the one who's already married. In which case it's the same thing. You just have to accept and know that your memories of that person will probably bring a nice little smile to your lips in the future when you're old and gray and reminiscing. But if neither of that is the case, then it's different. What do you do if it's not yet too late? Simple...find him, find her. Because the very existence of a "one that got away" means that you'll always wonder, what if you got that one?

Ask him out to coffee, ask her out to a movie, it doesn't matter if you've dropped in from out of nowhere. You'd be surprised, you just might be "the one that got away" as well for the person who is your "the one that got away."

You might drop in from out of nowhere and it won't make a difference.

If the timing is finally right, it'll all just fall into place somehow and you know, I'm thinking, it would be a great feeling, in the end, to be able to say to someone, "Hey you, you're the one that almost got away." =)





...i'm moving on...

reflecting II

“Love is always patient and kind; it is never jealous, love is never boastful or conceited; it is never rude or selfish; it does not take offense, and is not resentful. Love takes no pleasure in other people’s sins but delights in the truth; it is always ready to excuse, to trust, to hope, and to endure whatever comes. Love does not come to an end.”

Love does not come to an end… as the saying goes and as what the bible says.

My favorite part, it is never rude or selfish… Love is not selfish…

Have you tried loving someone who is already committed? And that very same time, you are also committed? Mahirap dba? Dalawa silang mahal mo. To the point na you dont even know who you love more and kung sino ang pipiliin mo.

I know it’s all my fault. For the last 2 weeks, naging selfish ako. I was not able to think and balance the things happening in my life. Being committed for almost 6 months, we’ve been through a lot. Mostly, yung mga hard times. But we managed to get over those things and we knew, we loved each other more.

I didnt expected na dadating ang isang tao sa buhay ko na sa sobrang short span ng time, I will learn to love more. Siguro kasalanan mo din, kasi lagi kang walang time. Lagi kang walang oras. Lagi kang busy. You can’t blame me for entertaining another feeling here inside of me for another one.

Now we’re through, I want you to know that you are still here in my heart. The very same position you took the first day we committed ourselves to each other.

Sa ginawa ko, I thought things will be ok. Kasi single na ako. Siya na lang ang hihintayin kong maging single. But things are not going okay the way I am expecting.

Love does not begin and end the way we seem to think it does. Love is a battle, love is a war, and most of all, love is about growing up.

I wish that I loved you in silence because I find no rejection and how I wish I loved you in my dreams, for in my dreams, no one owns you but me.

I learned how to love without expecting anything in return. For a while, it felt good but soon enough I had to stop. Why? Because the more I love the person, the more I loose myself. And the saddest part of it all is when I found myself again but I can no longer feel whole again. Well that’s because a part of me went astray with the very person I have to forget. Pero sabi nga, it’s better to love for a minute and remember it for a lifetime than to love for a lifetime and hate every minute of it. Wala akong pinagsisihan, and I never will.

it’s time to move on now…

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Ang buhay parang life, minsan masaya minsan malungkot… parang gulong, minsan nasa ibabaw at nasa ilalim…

Love is blind daw ika nga, because lovers cannot see the petty follies they commit. Pero when you know na mali at hindi tama ang pag ibig na nararamdaman mo, will you go for it?

Yung ibang tao naman, kung sinong ayaw nya, siya naman ang lapit ng lapit at yung gustong gusto mo naman ang ayaw sa iyo… ang galing no?

Sa pagmamahal, hindi importante kung ano ka, sino ka, where you came from, what’s your status in life, etc. etc. What matters is how you loved one another (sounds family)… Pero mali rin na lagi kang bulag sa pag-ibig, because in the end, ikaw din ang magsa suffer.

Ang buhay ay sadyang ganyan, so much unfair. But that’s reality, dapat nating tanggapin anoman at sinoman ang dumating sa ating buhay. Kailangan nating tanggapin kung anoman meron tayo at dapat nating i accept na minsan, ung taong pinakamamahal mo ay hindi pala para sa iyo. Na dumaan lang siya para mapasaya ang buhay mo even for just a short span of time…

Just don’t regret anything and everything you’ve done… never… what really matters is experiencing happiness and knowing that whatever love you gave, was back to you more than you expected. Time may come, seeing each other again, both with own family and career, you just whisper “itong taong ito, once in my life passed by and made me happy which helped me reach my dreams and gave me inspiration all through the years”.

Magkahiwalay man tayo, I just view our past love as a lesson and not as a tragedy unlike before. Just believe that when someone left you, somebody will come into your life more than you least expected and will give you happiness you never found in your past love.

Mahal man natin ang isa’t isa, we have to part ways, not because we don’t want it anymore but because it is not for us.

Minsan, when we meet someone, akala natin siya na ang magiging future natin. But there are many things in store for us. There are a million possible ways to come.

Whatever experiences we had, iba’t iba man ng level, ng takbo at ng mga pangyayari, nagmahal pa rin tayo. Yun ang pinakaimportante sa lahat, magmahal ng tapat at totoo.

Kaya lang ang pinakamasakit minsan, sa hindi inaasahang pagkakataon at lalong sa hindi inaasahang tao pa natin mararamdaman. Kaya savor each passing moment and begin each day happy and with a smile. Whatever happens today may never happen again tomorrow.

Hello and Welcome to My World!

Hi and Welcome to my new blog.

Why Night Bird's World? Derived from the same title of the song "Night Birds". Let me share the lyrics with you guys.

Night Birds

fly on through the night wind take a star to her for me
please wisper i love her tell her wait for me
here it seems so cold now how i miss her arms around me
soar nightbird of love make her wait for me

cause you have wings you know i let you go
almost every night
but loneliness can dull the shine
of even the bright moon light

night bird fly on, fly on
night bird, sing her my song

oh before you leave take this band of gold with you
and if you can find her tell her i am true

cause you have wings you know i let you go
almost every night
but loneliness can dull the shine
of even the bright moon light

night bird fly on, fly on
night bird sing her my song

Notice how the master gives order to his birds... So sweet but authoritative... Having your own night birds is quite fun. You have them deliver your message to your one true love. And yes, I mentioned about love. I will talk about love on this blog.

See you and hope that you will drop by more often.