reflecting II

“Love is always patient and kind; it is never jealous, love is never boastful or conceited; it is never rude or selfish; it does not take offense, and is not resentful. Love takes no pleasure in other people’s sins but delights in the truth; it is always ready to excuse, to trust, to hope, and to endure whatever comes. Love does not come to an end.”

Love does not come to an end… as the saying goes and as what the bible says.

My favorite part, it is never rude or selfish… Love is not selfish…

Have you tried loving someone who is already committed? And that very same time, you are also committed? Mahirap dba? Dalawa silang mahal mo. To the point na you dont even know who you love more and kung sino ang pipiliin mo.

I know it’s all my fault. For the last 2 weeks, naging selfish ako. I was not able to think and balance the things happening in my life. Being committed for almost 6 months, we’ve been through a lot. Mostly, yung mga hard times. But we managed to get over those things and we knew, we loved each other more.

I didnt expected na dadating ang isang tao sa buhay ko na sa sobrang short span ng time, I will learn to love more. Siguro kasalanan mo din, kasi lagi kang walang time. Lagi kang walang oras. Lagi kang busy. You can’t blame me for entertaining another feeling here inside of me for another one.

Now we’re through, I want you to know that you are still here in my heart. The very same position you took the first day we committed ourselves to each other.

Sa ginawa ko, I thought things will be ok. Kasi single na ako. Siya na lang ang hihintayin kong maging single. But things are not going okay the way I am expecting.

Love does not begin and end the way we seem to think it does. Love is a battle, love is a war, and most of all, love is about growing up.

I wish that I loved you in silence because I find no rejection and how I wish I loved you in my dreams, for in my dreams, no one owns you but me.

I learned how to love without expecting anything in return. For a while, it felt good but soon enough I had to stop. Why? Because the more I love the person, the more I loose myself. And the saddest part of it all is when I found myself again but I can no longer feel whole again. Well that’s because a part of me went astray with the very person I have to forget. Pero sabi nga, it’s better to love for a minute and remember it for a lifetime than to love for a lifetime and hate every minute of it. Wala akong pinagsisihan, and I never will.

it’s time to move on now…